Very Sucky!!!
Yes, this is how I'm feeling lately. It's been almost a week since Mr.M left home for his new job training(starting with a 3-day orientation in Kansas). He won't be home for another 5 weeks or so. I've been trying super-hard not to be depressed. It's working relatively well for the most part, work keeps me busy and stuff, but when you haven't gone a single day without seeing this one person in over 3 years, it's more than a little freaky when they leave for whatever reason. Granted, this has got to be the best reason out there for your man leaving you, especially since I know he'll be back. I just miss him like I would assume that squirrels would miss their fur, had they been shaved. The real test is going to be tomorrow and Tuesday, since I have both days off. I've worked every day since he left, including the day I dropped him off at the bus station, so I've been nice and distracted. Now these 2 days off are just, sort of, looming up ahead and I have no idea what I'm going to do with them. I could go somewhere, but I don't even want to go anywhere without Mr.M. Especially to our favorite restaurants, or fun places we've been together, because I'm afraid I'll just lose it and start crying hysterically in the middle of Hacienda Colorado(fav mexican restaurant).
On the upside, he's doing terriffic. He had the orientation and it went well, but it was definitely 3 very hectic days for him. We talk on the phone every night, and are cursing our new Nextel phones with their batteries that only last a day at a time. Very annoying. He's in a truck now, driving with a trainer, and the 2 of them are getting along famously. He's loving it so far, which makes it a bit easier on me since I've been waiting a long time for several things to fall into place.
1) happiness
2) happiness
3) money
4) happiness.
He was super happy at Essex Service Center, using the flatbed tow truck, and he was a tow truck driver for about 6 years with different places, but was happiest there. However, the work load fluctuated, sometimes wildly, and his paycheck could range from $600 one week to $80 another week. Not very reassuring or stable when things are lean, no matter how much he loved the job. Then when we moved out here to CO, and he went to school and loved that, then he got the job at this local trucking company. Unfortunately, they jerked him around more than a lonely teenager jerks himself. He got hired with the agreement that he'd work on the dock(which he hated, btw) for a few months to get the hang of their system, and until another driver job opened up. Long story short, after about 6 months he was still on the dock and completely miserable, though the money was good. Which is in ABSOLUTELY no way worth it!! So this, this ability to do what he loves, driving, and to be able to see the country while doing it(granted, see the country from the highway, but still), and to be able to make really good money doing it, well, that above all should make me happy. And it does. But I'm selfish. And I want my baby back. *sniff*
On the upside, he's doing terriffic. He had the orientation and it went well, but it was definitely 3 very hectic days for him. We talk on the phone every night, and are cursing our new Nextel phones with their batteries that only last a day at a time. Very annoying. He's in a truck now, driving with a trainer, and the 2 of them are getting along famously. He's loving it so far, which makes it a bit easier on me since I've been waiting a long time for several things to fall into place.
1) happiness
2) happiness
3) money
4) happiness.
He was super happy at Essex Service Center, using the flatbed tow truck, and he was a tow truck driver for about 6 years with different places, but was happiest there. However, the work load fluctuated, sometimes wildly, and his paycheck could range from $600 one week to $80 another week. Not very reassuring or stable when things are lean, no matter how much he loved the job. Then when we moved out here to CO, and he went to school and loved that, then he got the job at this local trucking company. Unfortunately, they jerked him around more than a lonely teenager jerks himself. He got hired with the agreement that he'd work on the dock(which he hated, btw) for a few months to get the hang of their system, and until another driver job opened up. Long story short, after about 6 months he was still on the dock and completely miserable, though the money was good. Which is in ABSOLUTELY no way worth it!! So this, this ability to do what he loves, driving, and to be able to see the country while doing it(granted, see the country from the highway, but still), and to be able to make really good money doing it, well, that above all should make me happy. And it does. But I'm selfish. And I want my baby back. *sniff*
posted by She Must be Full of BS | 10:52 PM
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